the new normal

There are days like this - I've slept through the night, nothing aches, I don't have to do anything, there is a blooming tree outside my window, there is no discomfort in existing.  Yet the center of my existence is gone.  I'm like those people who lose their vision and can only see out of the periphery of their eye.  That is the best I can do.  This is the new high.  I can only live life on the edges.  My center is gone.