"Sometimes I think the purpose of life is to reconcile us to its eventual loss by wearing us down, by proving, however long it takes, that life isn't all it's cracked up to be." The Sense of an Ending, Julian Barnes
Figures that the first new book I like is about a young suicide and his converse - the guy who "wanted life not to bother me too much, and had succeeded - and how pitiful that was."
What kills me is that I knew this when I was young. I just closed my eyes and hoped against hope that it wasn't so. I irresponsibly created another life, just to justify my own. And he had to die in order to open my eyes to the ultimate meaninglessness of what I had done. He died for my sins.