Thursday, June 21, 2012
I'm trying to wrap it up. I already wrote the ending, but I'm not sure it stands up as a whole. I've never written anything as long. I start reading it to revise it and I get caught up in it and change almost nothing. I guess that's a good sign. But I'm not sure a casual reader would understand it the same way. Some of it is written almost in shorthand. I've done this twice now. And yet I'm not satisfied with it. It seems both too short and too long for what it is. I'm not sure what it is - it's a hybrid, really, of trying to reconstruct my feelings about his death and his character traits which might explain it. A lot of it is his words. That I'm satisfied with. He needed a forum. But I'm not ready to part with it. Will I ever be? I should let someone else judge. Soon.