Fear cannot be without hope nor hope without fear. -
Baruch Spinoza, Ethics
Sunday, December 2, 2012
The pain has subsided a bit - when I do get it, it's only a mild burst of heat in my abdomen. It's really more panic than depression, and I'm not the anxious type - I can usually talk myself down, so I manage it. What is always there is the despair - the thought that my baby is dead and there is no future without him. But really there was no future all along, just the illusion of one.