Saturday, June 22, 2013
grief doesn't cover it
I'm supposed to be bereaved and going through grief. I know what that is like and this is so much more. I wake up every morning with a hole in my center. I wake up in pain. I know that I'm a failure from that first moment of the day. Because I created something beautiful and it couldn't thrive. Every decision I made was wrong. It's different when disease or pure accident takes someone. It's still unfair. There is still enough blame to go around, but this is different. This is failure at the core.