I must have seen it before, but today I looked it up and saw that it was to someone he had recently met, giving him links on advice for a Paleo diet. He sent it while he was waiting for his girl to respond to his text, but she had fallen asleep.
As much as I sometimes think it was inevitable, this reminds me of how stupidly accidental his death was. A chemical quirk. His last text was "Did you fall asleep?"
I cried today. It's getting too hard. My pains last night wouldn't go away after the spasm subsided, my stomach continued to hurt. I miss him so much that nothing else is worth it. Not that there is anything else.